I was going to be all grown up and set out my goals for the year, but I can’t. I feel that writing them down will jinx them, and will also somehow prevent me from doing other things as well. Last year I set out to graduate, which I did, and I also did a whole load of other stuff besides. This year I am doing the same sort of open book/blank page type of thing. Don’t get me wrong, I have a list of things I want to accomplish, but I do find as soon as I have written them down, the power has somehow dissipated and I am more likely not to do them. But saying all that! I did put the word ‘Bless’ in my art journal yesterday, having said I would. So it isn’t impossible that I can’t set out a promise to myself. I have just realised I am less likely to do something if I verbalise it too. I am now wondering why that is…maybe I am just good at keeping things under wraps, but maybe, as I said the other day, I am just afraid of failing and would rather say nothing that disappoint myself.
That sounds about right.