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Oh The Peace…

It has just turned from Monday morning to Monday afternoon and it is a beautiful day.   I am lucky that I have a picture window to my left with a view to the garden beyond.   The garden is looking a little weather ravaged, but the blue sky and winter sun is making up for the randomly wind placed small branches and twigs, as well as the blown-over swing seat.

My original plan for this morning had to be postponed in order for me to sort out the piles of sh*t left for me by various agencies over the weekend.   Now I’ve done as much as I can there it has left my afternoon rather blissfully task free.  That isn’t to say I don’t have things I need to be doing, but I can afford a few minutes to just enjoy the peace and quiet of my office area.   I can hear a drill somewhere, and various bangs from the workshop next door.  A dog is barking and a rather delicate and musical sneeze just echoed through wall.   It is definitely a good time to be counting blessings and feeling grateful.  To just enjoy the moment.  Sometimes we get so caught up in the hassle and hustle of every day living that we forget to just sit still.

There’s a saying I like to use when I think I am too busy to stop.  “Meditate for half an hour a day, and if you are busy, meditate for an hour”.  I personally like to meditate, but I know many don’t.  For those that don’t I definitely recommend spending time to just sit.  I prefer to sit near a window if I can’t be outside, but anywhere will do (not when you’re driving though, please).  Switch off any noise and distractions you can, TV, radio, music, phone (or put them on silent for a while) close your eyes and open your ears.  Breathe in deeply through your nose, hold that breathe for a second, then exhale through your mouth.  Then breathe normally while you take in the sounds around you.   In your mind’s eye, see where you are, the building you are in, the structures around you.  See the landscape beyond.  Feel how comfortable and safe you are, right now, this minute.   Allow yourself this time off and away from your busy day.   Now take a deep breath again, release and open your eyes.   You’ve just given yourself some time out – and it didn’t take too long out of your busy day 🙂

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When Writing Isn’t Fun.

I have a quote that keeps me sane at the moment, and it is “Build your own dreams or someone else will hire you to build theirs” – Farrar Gray.  The reason this quote is so important to me is I am starting out on the road to self-employment this year.  However, I have hit a stumbling block that just is not leaving me.

I love writing – when it is fun.

Words just flow from my finger tips in the same way they do from my lips (I love speaking too!) but why is it, as soon as I open up my business plan documents, I suddenly need to clean the entire house from top to bottom and start looking for more and more ridiculous tasks to keep me ‘busy’?    I have my quote in front of me now, I read it and feel it and absorb it and want it and crave it and covet it! But stick me in front of my business plan and I suddenly want to be anything other than self-employed.   I know I’m not alone in this, as there are great articles and resources for us right brain doers, but there’s no getting away from the need to get over this left brain writers block I have.

Perhaps part of it is the fear of having my ideas judged unfavourably, but I know I have the ability to sell sand to the Sahara.  Perhaps also it is my own fear of failure, but I know I don’t fail, I just find creative ways of succeeding.  Maybe also, it is a fear I will be judged myself.  I am a single parent, I have five children, wouldn’t I be better off in a safe, guaranteed job with safe, guaranteed pay?  Well, yes, maybe that would be the case, and maybe it wouldn’t.  Nothing is guaranteed.

So, today I am sitting surrounded by sheets of paper that have the ‘clues’ I need to write my plan, along with written documents that serve little more than to create a question mark over my head, and once again, I find something else more interesting to do, this blog, the laundry, making breakfast, washing the car…